pain

wats..wrong.with.me?
a.year.back....i.never.tot..i.wil.be.anything.like.this...ever...
like.a.wreck....like.a.gone.case

looking.at.the.hp....looking.at.replies.for.msges.sent...looking.for.new.msges...looking.for.email.replies..
looking.for.msn.replies...every.single.possible.time.from.him

yearning.for.his.voice.

bt.i.need.to.understand..he.isnt.there.anymore....nomore....
bt..i.need....how?...bt.u.cant.disturb.him...u.know....he.has.his.own.life....his.own
yeah.put.that.on...u...everytime...u.need.him....u.use.it.that.thing..the.pain.will.be.there....it'll.teach.u...not.to.want.him
one.day.....u.will.no.longer.feel.the.physical.pain...then.maybe.u.wont.feel.the.heart.pain.as.well.
noones.there....the.pain.is.killing...killing.