sometimes

Sometimes I wish I could smoke
Sometimes I wish I could utter all the bad words
Sometimes I wish I could drink myself silly and lie down some where
Sometimes I wish I could party all night long for days without a care in the world.

Sometimes I feel so bitter I wish I could do all of those.

Its like a temptation….an urge.

Getting stronger. Day by day. Especially today when I was on the verge.

when couldnt be with them

Like I wanna throw away and do these things.

Coz anyways everyones doing it. Maybe these things will be bring me the happiness. Why else would others be doing it.

Coz I just feel so bored with myself.