who.was.i.kidding?

yeah.who.was.i.kidding?
i.cried.for.a.total.of.three.hours.for.now...
i.dono.why.i.keep.tearing.like.this
but.it.bloody.hurts.
really.

but.i.cannot.let.the.world.see.my.tears
i.cannot.let.the.world.see.my.hurt
i.need.to.pretend.like.everything.is.alright.
...
damn
damnit
please.stop.me.from.crying.stop.my.heart.from.bleeding.