i feel like a witch...

todae lets call him mr J.... asked me out. yet again n again. its been 2 years but the asking out never stopped.everytime he asks and I say nope...hes gets saddy making me feel miserable..i like u and ur strength he says...but if u dun like it all...i will give up asking u out..he says....bt he never does.

but i can never explain myself in way that he wld understand. wat he sees in me is something i never understood. like he dun even know me...the watever work we did together was offically company assigned...i never hanged out socially with him...except for the few group gatherings....he has had a crush on me for years he says....u are always turning me down he says with that slight aussie drawl.

well i have tried to explain myself many times bt he never seem to have gotten me..well i am a perfectionist in almost everything even in relationships...i haven forgotten wat had happened with the one i liked...memories linger..though i know its hopeless and its for my best. well if only we can tell ourself things and our mind and heart listens to it...it doesn. well I dun think i am the one mr j wants...I dun think i can give wat others can give him. i dun think i can afford anytime now and to hang out only when i am free would make me a selfish person...i dun think i want to get to know anyone other that the motives of a fren...

I know he prob thinks i am like some witch who makes his life miserable..bt yeah i hope this mkes it clearer for him.i mean u ever get to read this. i am nt suppose to be slacking...