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hmm i dono wat's wrong with me these days...

i have got a permanent head-ache

and my mind seems to be sleeping all the time...

i dono if its the heat, age or the malaria pills

damn.

i am juz back from a meeting and i hate it and everything else. i cant wait for it to be over.

okie pest has slept. poor boy. i dint even ask him if he had dinner or if he was fine. sometimes i live in a world of myself.

bt i badly wanted to speak to someone.

thanks priya for callling and listening to me =)

thanks you mr for scaring me. i mean i dono how u know info...bt it kinda freaks me out. like really. i know u always mean the best for me. and you are very protective over me. sometimes it helps if u tell me. it makes me feel so much safer.

thanks sara for talking. haha u and ur "i will tell u a joke and cheer u up" thing always works eh? haha coz u always have lolu jokes and i am even worse than ur jokess :P haha now u are no longer cleaner bt the bottler. hope everything goes well for u. i am sure it will. =)

okie i am half tempted to call e or a bt its tooo late. i shall juz go sleep.

hey dude thanks for the call....

hey thanks for the talk. really.

i really thought u wanted to move away from me when u wanted a break from us. i tot us included me.

i really thought the only reason why you were close to me and do the things u do is coz u have a like-ing for me in a more than a fren way.

It was really nice to hear you say i'll be best female fren ever....and that i'll be yr fren no matter what. and thankies for offering to get yr mum to help me with my teaching materials. i kinda miss her....shes so hyper stressed up that makes her all so adorable! i rem the times when we were over at your place she'll be so worried if we'll be safe in the house, if we'll clear up the mess we made. I'll miss your house too though i hope the sales goes all well.

i really miss u too dude...its been ages since we saw each other..and i promise after i come back from india...we'll meet up!

and yeah i mite be the least cuddly, emotional person around but u really mean alot dude...i jus rarely show it...and i will make it a point to call more often....i guess it true to a certain level that my frens are the one who keep my frenships going...bleah

you'll always be the first indian male fren i ever had

the first male that i held a conversation for more than an hour - haha i rem the times when i intially hated speaking on the phone....i will always wanna call and speak the matter and hang up. ..coz i simply hated being on the phone for long..

the one who irritates me to the max calling me "wifey" and getting people to believe that everywhere we went and have me defending that all the time ....till i was even yelling through the closed train door that i am not yr wife. u idiot! till even ur mum had to go "stop bullying that poor gal"...yayee i love ur mommy man!

i accidentally opened the emergency door at mustafa and sounded the stupid alarm all coz i was talking you and u had to go and spread that to everyone and make me look like an idiot!

and i love all the time we spent at the sinda camps

and how u went ard telling gals to stay away from a certain someone juz coz i liked him and how you looked out for me when that certain someone went clubbing

how u told me the certain someone doesn deserve me though he was super goodlooking but u said i cld do better and i am glad today that i moved away from him coz i dont want a life his current "loves" are leading.ever.

and the way u'll tell me the personal things u did with gals and how i always tot everything was digusting and i'll end up saying i will juz be with the person for his emotional bonding like a companionant never for any external pleasures

thanks for looking out for me all the years dude. =) i will always love you as a fren

simply undescribable

Don't love a person bcos he is good looking...What if he is not good looking anymore?
Don't love a person bcos he is nice...What if he is not nice anymore?
Don't love a person bcos he is sweet...What if he is not sweet anymore?
Don't love a person bcos he is romantic...What if he is not romantic anymore?
Don't love a person bcos he is cute...What if he is not cute anymore?
Don't love a person bcos he is patient...What if he is not patient anymore?
Don't love a person bcos he is kind...What if he is not kind anymore?
Don't love a person bcos of what he has done...What if he never do it again for u anymore?

Love the person only bcos of who he is, the good, bad and ugly, the wholesome He.

Finally, on a footnote, I'll say if love has to state 'reasons', it would be most unromantic, boring and take away the chemical component of love... So please girls, don't force your partners to list down the reasons, for love is a FEELING, and most things about love are better not said but FELT in the heart

*not written by me*

some times some feelings

okie i feel not too good now..i kinda feel not satisfied with my life and bored in a wierd way...like the need to talk to somone....
i call him to return his call.....noone answers.
i miss mr A actually...he hasnt been talking properly ... he hasnt been around
i miss mr E also! i dont really speak to him that much nowadays..and i haven seen him since jan!
and i soo miss S....we haven spoken or met in ages apart from the routine msn conversations.
i even miss the so called ooty people....maybe i juz want to talk to someone....maybe its a lonely lone feeling within me....and everyone else is busy doing their stuff....hmmmz

looking at my life...i dont think i did anything achievement based during the past 4 yrs.....i have a feelin that i wasted my life or something ...like its so not me compared to any of my sch yrs....i think i slacked the most in uni.....and spend the least time doing sch activities....if i can turn the clock ..i will do it all so differently :(
bt i cant...so i hope my extreme slack me gets of and the extreme hard working me comes backs and i will work really hard in my work place. really. i want to get somewhere . be someone. do something.

i love you priya. i know i am irritating bt yeah i love...i think u are the closest when coming to thinking alike. and i really miss u at times like this.

and i dont lke when one claims that i am wrong...and tells me to do otherwise and then when i am thinking abt it or at least considering wat they said....they themselves do wat i did....its SO irritating! and it juz makes me think....i was rite all along..so you are juz wasting my time and being insincere to your principles. so yeah i take u people seriously no more.


and you...maybe i shldnt have been rude to u....maybe it was my fault....bt i wil try harder..i am someone who rans at the sight of emotions....when i was a little gal, i din speak to my fren when her dad was no more around..coz i was so afraid of not knowing wat to say and wat to do when she cries....and i am rarely emotional...except maybe when u are super close to me.....bt its rare i think ..so i dont really know wat is the right thing to say....when someone is upset. i get iritated at times.

frens are weird

i used to think frens are great now i think they can get a little weird....a little

i have fren A, he used to so close to me, then we became not too close bt we still spoke every day...and then complications came in and i din know wat to do...then the complications cleared and we became frens again. not so close bt reasonably...then he disappears totally saying that nothing is wrong...he the one who got mad at me coz i din speak to him for a week when i so freakin upset...once....

he who deleted me off frenster....he who held a big fuss against me.....and he does it all himself...strange isnt it...so why preach when u dont practice it?

I have a fren B whom i was very close to .....i used to tell him everything that happens in my life..bt now i dono..i dont think he trusts me or cares as much he used to....i think things are very surfacial...so i dono..i dont really speak to him abt stuff although at times i am dying to

I have another fren C, he used to be very close to me also ...he isnt now...coz of our time constraints..bt i know things will never distance between us....even if i dont speak to him for so many months...the times we speak i feel like i have been talking to him every other day..i cant wait to meet u next week dude!

i cant wait to correct things with the other twooooo.....

life's such a drag.

hmm life has been quite draggy recently....its like work, school, tuitions every other minute....that even meeting frens becomes not so very appealing coz you are juz so tired that u rather be home sleeping or feeling the feeling of homely-ness. I cant wait for the last two papers to be over soon. I LOVE school. I really do but i think work school and tuitions together makes it too tiring to enjoy it as one should, could.

YOU are being missed.

bleah.