Online fren makings

I seriously dun understand how why people bother making frens online...a few messages on friendster...then requests to be added onto msn...then they start chatting and then numbers are passed.

Dont get me wrong.I am all out for making friends and everything. friends are good..the best.... But I dun reali see the need of me answering the calls of some unknown stranger asking me questions like "have u eaten?" (like so wat are u going to do if i had not) "Wats up?" (after 100 wats up..i feel like strangling the person on the other end coz I realli got stuff to do then to ans ur "wats ups"). And msn messages continue..with the same gettting to know liners...it juz gets on my nerves...worse still i get all the "u are ingorin me" or "u are too busy eh?" with the leerin tone...

like I have to said to any person I added onto my msn or passed my number...i am so NOT the most friendliest phone or msn person on the earth (more so if u arent my fren) SO yeah. maybe if i had nothing to do in the whole wide world...and have got all the time..then i mite indulge in the "online fren makings" bt for the near future (with 101 things to do & my existing frens)...I will still send most of ur calls to missed calls if u insist...and i wld not appreciate all the "unknown" numbered calls...coz i make a hopeless fren to a potential fren.

disclaimer: this isnt targeted to u or anyone on my msn list bt of coz u think it is...then u muz be quite rite.

Sad....II

Well the whole talk abt losing frens juz got reminded me of u...someone whom I used to share so much with ...someone whom I used to hear things from.someone whom I so felt that

Well after all those talks and everything I finally thought I shld make all of those efforts to see u as a fren.nothing more nothing less. anyways the only reason for my confession was that I liked spendin time with and having u ard.but i tried and i am trying. bt then u arent helping in any ways possible...coz

1) if u are so very afraid that u are gonna lead me on for every word u utter..then its almost impossible to have a carefree conversation with u...i still feel ur cautiousness

2) if u arent gonna tell me anything abt the happenings...except for "things are okies" ...then likewise its so hard for me to come running to u to tell u anything
and even the little things i confide in u coz when u ask me of it..i wld think twice coz it makes me feel like i am botherin u....Seriously I dun feel like I am even ur fren at all...i feel like i am talking to a social helper ...that very feelin I hate...arent frens suppose to share things or something? its like u are there and everything bt soley literally..bt i have got no access to u

3) I dono I juz wished none of this ever happened..that u were alwayz stayed the distance fren u were...coz then i wld never have had the comfort of feelin so easy to confide in someone..then u disppear when I soo need to talk to someone abt it..so badly....its as though for the short term comfort u gave me...u took away the very little i had...makin me feel emptier than ever..coz its alwayz hard to have a comfort and loose it then never to have it....

oh wells nothing is permanent .... I cant force u to be the normal fren u were...so life juz goes on..i suppose...well at least u tot me something out of it all..to be selfish...maybe not so in a bad way bt that in a way that u shld care abt urself before caring abt anyone else...coz in the end we are all individuals juz trying to live together in this unstable world.

Sad..

Today I really really felt quite sad to have a few tears slipping by cheeks..I had a fren..a close fren A telling me of how a common fren C has disappeared from his life (nt literally)...And I am feeling the same way not suprisingly...after having C quite close to me for some time..I feel as though she isn't ard like wat she is used to be..and I juz want C to know...
1) I am here alwayz. If I am nt going to help u then there is noone else I am gonna help so much more.
2)yeah u mite feel more comfy with someone else than ur known frens bt I suppose we'll alwayz want the best for u
3)friendships grow only when u share things..there is no such thing as a one way communication.

Its been some time...

well its been ages since I stepped into my blogger pagey.so i'll do some summary for the months that flew past...

Holidays
Well that was something that was offically over weeks ago..sch has started like aug 22nd or something...and it already seems so longggggg!


Work
Work was fun bt stressful coz so many things were running concurrently at the same time. and the shifting of the departments and endless phonemails werent exactly fun and after a while i felt i was no longer learning anything..and that is the feeling i hate most!

New York Trip
This was super cool! My time overseas so far away that it was abt 24 hr flight(I swear i hate taking flights after this) the trip wasnt exactly a fun fun thingy coz we had presentations to make..people to entertain...and never fail to explain Singapore to anyone on the road who wld go "wow u are all from SIngapore? (american accent)"haha. But of coz we went to places I never dreamt of going to...and stuff like that so it was good...pretty good.